AM I REAL?

Is there ever a time that you do not feel real? I know everyone experiences this at some point in their life and some more than others whether they realize it or not. It is such an odd feeling. It is a weird strange feeling that comes over me. I have experienced these throughout my life. From what I have been told it is deperonalization and it is actually a mental disorder. Could I have this? I don't know but possibly. 

If I remain in this state of mind for long it freaks me out. Seeing my body and hearing myself talk seems so weird and so not real. You feel like you are in a dream or a movie. I feel like I am totally someone else and just not real. It is difficult to describe and difficult to understand unless you have experienced it yourself. It is a feeling of disconnection from people and also from life itself. At times you may feel that you are disabled or detached from the world around you as well as the world within you. Kind of freaky I know. 

Like I said it is very difficult to describe and very frustrating that it is hard to describe. At times you may even feel like you are outside of or detached from your body. It is a disassociation disorder but it can also be symptoms of other disorders as well. I personally can not stand the feeling of not being real. It wigs me out big time. It can make you feel like you are going crazy to a certain extinct depending on how severe you experience it. Well, I really don't know what else to say about it. It is just an unreal feeling. You will just have to google it to try to understand more of the symptoms if you are interested. 

So do any of you have these feelings at times? What do you think about it?

UNWELCOMED THOUGHTS

For the past while my mind has been invaded with unwelcomed thoughts. When dealing with being bipolar sometimes my mind goes hay wire. Feels like an electric circuit going off in my brain. Does anyone else ever feel like that? Thoughts come from no where and many times they are thoughts that normally I would never even think upon. They are so disturbing. Sometimes it feels like I am two different people when things like this happen. I can't do anything about the thoughts that enter my mind except to try not to dwell on them. it really gets to me sometimes. It really affects me. To be able to control the mind would be an awesome thing but unfortunately we are not able to do that.

I think I may need my meds adjusted some. Things just don't feel right. I don't feel right. Along with dealing with these mental issues I have been having some physical health issues as well. It is so frustrating many times to have to deal with all these issues. Trying to stay well physically and mentally can be draining, frustrating and very difficult. it does affect every aspect of life. Sometimes I try to not think about things but that is difficult when our mind is constantly thinking on something.

Do any of you have problems such as these? What do you do when they arise?

ON THIS JOURNEY

I have been on this journey of battling mental illness since I was a teenager. As with everything in life there has been good times and bad times. The one thing about mental illness that people do not realize or tend to overlook is that there can be and is a good side to mental illness. It can show up differently in different people but I do agree that it is mostly an uphill battle. It is one that we have to fight everyday. It is a fight that we must not give in to or it will overtake us. We have to move forward and not cave in. Are there times that we will feel like giving up? Of course. There are many times that I have felt like giving up and did to a certain extent but not to point that it ruins my entire life although sometimes I feel like it has at times.


There are many different mental illnesses with different descriptions but there are also some that overlap each other and that is because many of the illnesses have similar symptoms. For this reason many are on medications to help with those symptoms and to be able to manage their life to a greater extent. They do help tremendously although some suffer many side effects. There of course is also counseling that helps many to deal with the daily struggles of life. 


I myself suffer from bipolar disorder, anxiety as well as PTSD and some OCD which isn't a great combination but it is what it is. I hope to meet different people who have struggles with mental illness and even those who don't. If you have a mental illness or have a loved one with a mental illness let me know and let's try to help each other and support one another.


DONNA  :)